Feed the birds (open)

[Kagumi Michiyo]

Kagumi looked up at him and smiled, she was glad he didn’t give his real name, she preferred an alias. Knowing what she was knee deep in she couldn’t possibly bear it if the enemy used that against her. If he died in the process she didn’t know what she would do.

A part of her wanted to tell him her real name, but she couldn’t bear to, even if he wasn’t Kira. She looked down at the nearly abandoned sunhat then back up again, “ Z” she said simply. She knew her alias had to be covered also especially if Mr.Kin found out, she had to make sure he didn’t use it too, she didn’t want him to use 21 against her either. “ Or Buds in certain places” she tapped at the earphones that lied forgotten on the sunhat.

[lagas]

Her smile was so beautiful that he wished he could look at it forever, but as he knew people don't smile forever. He was pretty sure she was happy that he didn't give her his real name, but then couldn't be 100% positive. He was hoping she would give him her alias too, which she probably would. He was glad to hear her say an alias and not her real name, now she would be safe.

"Buds...what a pretty name." He couldn't help but smile as he remember him and his mother picking buds on trees, oh so long ago. The smile was gone in a flash, as soon as he pushed the memory of his mother away. He didn't want to remember her, he wanted to forget her, leave her behind forever. He didn't want to think about anything, but Buds right now. Though he knew he wouldn't be able to always call her this, he didn't want her to be known as his weakness. Things could get messy if Kira or L knew about his weaknesses.

[Kagumi Michiyo]

Kagumi had felt better than ever in this state, and she smiled a little brighter at the sound of her name coming from his mouth, it sounded so much sweeter coming from him. but she knew she would have to tell him her real name in time, just to know, " When they finally get Kira," Kagumi murmured, " I promise I will tell you my real name, but I cant do it now, not now, I'm sorry."

Before she could react she could see his sudden change in expression and she lifted herself up to meet his pensive eyes, she gave a sudden look of concern and she tipped her head to the side before he could finally regain his composure, " whats wrong?"

[lagas]

21 was glad that one day she would tell him her real name, but for now that would have to wait. Right now all 21 was concerned about was Bud. He loved her so much, but he wasn't sure if she would accept his feelings or totally reject them. For now he would kept quite and wait to see if she felt the same. He knew that she liked him, but did he really and truly love him???"It's fine. I can wait until Kira is caught to know your real name. For now Bud is your beautiful name. Don't worry, I'll tell you my real name when Kira is caught too." He gave her one of his biggest, happiest smiles. The happiest smile he could pull off anyways.

21 only came back to the real world when Bud started to move. When he looked at her, she was looking into his eyes. 21 was rather surprised when she asked what was wrong. Had he looked sad? He was thinking of his mother, and sometimes that caused him to look sad. That must have been it. "Oh, it's nothing. It's just...your name reminds me of when me and my mother used to pick buds. But that's in the past, and the past isn't coming back..." He looked into her eyes while saying this. The sadness was over powering his eyes, and he wasn't sure if he could hold in the tears that were coming. He forced himself to smile and blink the tears away. He didn't wand Bud to see him sad.

[Kagumi Michiyo]

Kagumi wanted to pay it no mind at all, but her concern was overpowering a couple of points of reason at the moment, She hadnt been out and about to see any of the whammy kids look the way he did before ( most of the kids didnt like showing weakness that much, and if they did it wasnt in public...). It caught her by surprise when she saw tears well in his eyes. Her heart softened instantly and she brushed the tear that trailed helplessley down his cheek and she gave a small smile, " I'm so sorry." she said softly, she kissed his chek and wrapped her arms around him in a hug, " I didnt mean to make you cry."

She felt that sensation again but now she could place it, it took her so long to figure out what that feeling was, but she was sad she was so blind, she couldnt comprehend it at first, but now that she thought about it. can it be? One of the smartest kids in whammy house couldnt get it, it was uncertain at first but

could it have been love?

She bit her lip apprehensively, she wanted to say it, but what would happen, would she regret it? would he get up and leave? she wanted it way too much to let him go but that fear was all that was left to break down.

[lagas]

"It's not your fault. Please don't apologize." Her warm hand on his cheek felt so good. "I must look like a real dork crying right?" He couldn't help but smirk. 21 didn't want to leave her, he wanted to stay by her forever, but he knew that this wouldn't be. Deep down inside, he knew it wouldn't happen, and that's what really killed him. Knowing that he would have to let her go, that he would have to walk away from her and leave her alone...It killed him inside, slowly, but it killed him one way or the other.

21 noticed that she was thinking, but about what? Was she regretting what she did? Was she trying to think of a way to leave? He couldn't blame her for thinking either of these things, but he hoped with all his heart that she wasn't thinking those things. He was thinking himself. Thinking if he should tell her his feelings. Should he tell her everything that was going through his mind? Or should he just stay quite and leave his feelings unknown, his thoughts unknown? He wasn't sure which one to do, but for the moment he was just going to think about it.

[Kagumi Michiyo]

she could feel her cheeks becoming wet herself, she could feel that fear inside of her that she had never in a long time felt. The day that Megumi died, she had felt that wrenching guilt only moments before, if only i had held on even a couple of minutes longer, she would still be here. her heart gave another guilty jerk and she felt her grip tighten slightly, more protectively than anything, she couldnt possibly let him go now...

She had noticed the change in his eyes and judging by the lump in her throat he could feel the fear too, " I'd prefer you tell me what is on your mind love...." she said with a weak smile, her cheeks wet with tears, " please, I need this..."

[lagas]

When 21 looked down at her, he saw her crying. He began to whip the tears falling for her eyes. He gave her a hug, before whipping her tears again. It made his heart beat with pain, seeing her in pain. He didn't know what to do. He'd never seen someone else cry, besides his mother. 21 didn't know how to comfort people when they were sad, he didn't know how to make himself feel better.

When he breathed in, it felt thick and heavy. Fear was all around him as he opened his mouth, he wasn't sure if he was going to regret this or not. He leaned in closer to her face so he wouldn't have to talk very loud. "I love you Bud. I really love you..."

[Kagumi Michiyo]

When he hugged her tightly a warmth overcame her and she bit her lip in a weaker smile that she tried not to make a concerned grimage, she could feel everything around her become still and silent, as if fate wanted this moment for the two of them, needed it to survive. She had to hear it before she could admit it too, or else she wouldnt know what to do when the time finally comes and she is left alone amongst the bodies of her fallen comerades. she wasnt one to make friends, esspecially in her current situation.

Something in her heart lifted at the sound of his voice, tears began to stream again, but this time in obvious happiness and her smile brightened, " I love you too...I love you so much..."

[lagas]

He just looked at her for a minute, both scared and excited at the same time. Until he heard her say the words he wanted to hear, his heart was pounding wildly. A smile spread across his face in a flash. He was so happy that he just sat there with a big dorky smile on his face. She was not his first love, or his first friend, but either way she was still important to him. No one could fill the emptiness in is heart, but she was helping to somewhat fill the void.

21 was shocked when she started crying, but then he smiled. He touched her wet cheek with his hand. He was whipping her tears slowly. He didn't want to let her out of sight, or out of reach. "I'm glad to hear that." He closed his eyes as he kissed her wet cheek. She was so warm...

[Kagumi Michiyo]

the feel of his kiss warmed her heart and she nestled lovingly against him, giggling a little at the sight of his wide smile. Though she knew night had fallen in the park, there was still the sight of a nest of sparrows gazing hungrily down at her remains of bread. It had been dwindled down to half of a piece (to her surprise) and she smiled, she wasnt hungry at the most, so giving up a piece of bread to birds wasnt as big a deal to her as anyone had realized. She had remembered when she had been reduced to that, going days without food or need for any kind of hospitality whatsoever. The mother sparrow, probably no bigger than her palm, was pushing the baby bird off of the nest in an attempt to make it fly, the little one was ready to spread its wings.

Smiling at the tiny baby bird, she turned to get the bread and broke off a couple of pieces. the little bird tumbled out of the nest, and it looked like it might fall to its death, but about a foot before it hit the ground, its wings spread and took off. The bird circled around the tree once, and then Kagumi threw the bread to it, smiling again as it caught it in its beak and flew into a nearby branch to eat as Kagumi watched with pride still nestled against 21.

[lagas]

The way she giggled an the way she nestled against him, made him feel something like never before. Bud had showed him how life was really supposed to be lived. The way he was living before wasn't living, it was letting life pass him by. He was taking life for granted, though if he had lost his life it wouldn't have mattered to him anyways, but now everything was different. He wanted to live, he wanted to be here, he wanted to be happy, he wanted to be with Bud. She made him feel warm, and without her he knew the coldness would soon return to his heart. Without Bud he was nothing, he was just a cold hearted man lost in the night.

With his free hand he reached down on his leg to see if his gun was still there. If he lost his gun, 21 would be strange and even more lost. His hand stayed on his gun for only a second, before he pushed Bud's hair over to the side. He looked down at her. To him everything was beautiful. Her eyes, her lips, her cheeks, her nose, everything down to her toes. He gave Bud a smile before he stared at the night sky. The stars were shinning bright...just the way 21 liked it.

[Kagumi Michiyo]

After watching the bird take off into the night, she could feel the power of the night rushing on her, she looked up into the night sky and grinned. they were alone, there was solitude, and she couldnt have been any happier than she was now. The stars shone a lot brighter tonight below the streetlamp nearby, either they knew it was happening, or she just didnt notice. Being cooped up in her room all of the time she had always thought of the night to be a nuisance, but now that she was under it, looking at the calm of the earth with the one she loved, it looked a whole lot more beautiful, she would never take it for granted out here.

" How could i have never noticed such beauty?" she was asking to him and to herself, she felt complete, and she could see 21's eyes start to glitter under the blanket of stars. he was content and happy, just the way she liked and wanted. Her mind began to drift about the other cases and things she needed to do when everything comes around, she finished her memorization, so there was nothing else she needed to do. when she had come back down to earth, nothing had changed, but she knew she would have to leave eventually, and how would she feel? how would he feel about it?

[lagas]

21 saw Bud looking at him from the corner of his eye but didn't move his head from the sky. He absolutely loved the night sky and the stars, but this night was the best night of his life. With Bud with him he felt like one of the stars shining bright. He felt like he could accomplish anything with Bud at his side. Finally, when Bud starting talking he moved his glance from the sky to her eyes. He didn't know what was more beautiful the night sky or Bud. Those were his two loves in life and he couldn't pick, but it lay thick on his mind. He didn't like not being able to choose, but decided it wasn't worth getting to worked up about.

"Sometimes it takes time to see beauty while other times it doesn't take time at all..." as the words flowed out of his mouth slowly and calmly he looked at the stars then Bud. It still bothered him that he couldn't pick between Bud and the stars. He gave out a little sigh as he settled his eyes on Bud. Bud was more important to him then anyone, or anything before and right now he needed to focus on her because soon he knew they would have to part. What if he never saw her again? What if he found her again one day and she had forgotten about him? What would he do to survive without Bud by his side? This made his heart heavy with pain, but the pain was only just beginning.

[Kagumi Michiyo]

She gave a slight sigh, and her mind began to drift avidly. She thought about how her father was like, how much she enjoyed his company, how he always had an invention for her to play with, how he always made toys for her. Her mind then floated to the whammy house, not many people she was friends with, she didnt know that many, and the few that tried to talk to her didnt really talk at all, and knowing their involvement in the Kira case, she didnt really expect them to remember someone as distant as she was. They were smart, super smart, one kid even played chess with her from time to time, but he was doing other things now, he was on to bigger and better things than her, she thought about the layout of his location, 30 floors, the office on the very top with extensive security on the back corner of the....

Her eyes shot open at the thought. She realized what it was she forgot about, the papers she had to look at were still lying on the bed, spread out for the world to see. She quickly got to her feet, her heart panging at the empty feeling in result, and threw on her hat, " I'm sorry 21, I'm so sorry," she apoligized quickly pushing the earbuds into her ears, " But...there is really something I have to do...some things I have to do..." She didnt know what else to say, could she really say much about it?